Heartful

valentines day gives me a heartful of emotions. my favorite one is happiness. i love the cards from friends with little candies taped on them. the ones that say cutsie things like : "your my berry best buddy". those are the ones i hang up ^-^. another not so positive emotion is jealousy. i see these girls walk around with teddy bears that are bigger than them, and pretty red roses in little bunches of twelve. when i see this, i kinda wish that i had a guy that treated me special like that..... but at the same time; do i really want to have a "boyfriend" that will most likely get rid of me in two weeks? Na..... i also feel gratefulness. i am grateful that i have frends that wouldn't leave me for anything. i'm grateful that i am the first person they think of when they go to forward a valentines day message. i am grateful for my loving friends, and my family that set up a card and a candy bar for me on the table this valentines day morning. on this day i also feel the pressure and guilt to get my friends cards and chocolates.... but thats really not me. i just hope that they don't expect one, because they will be let down ;) with all these feelings and emotions i'm left feeling a bit confused. but at least i know that i have amazing friends and family; and that i don't need a boy or chocolate taped to a card to complete me. when i already am complete...